Recovering Alcoholics?

There really is nothing on my mind at the moment, not to sure when people will stop drinking and driving? like is someone really that stupid honestly, yeah i drink, so what? but im not the one sitting back talking shit on the people that do go out and party but yet i do the same thing? that's called a hypocritical statement. you wanna be the damn hero? SAVE YOUR DAMN SELF FIRST!

why cant i find happiness....

sometimes i dream about a place where there isnt any drama, or fighting or relationships, i just dream about me being happy, but then i wake up from that dream, it sucks to know that the only happiness i can have is in a dream, although, i have had happiness once in my life, when my parents were together, i mean life was amazing, i remember going camping about having dad mom and all the kids together, i miss is, honestly i think that they both miss it as well. I'm stuck watching romance movies or reading them in the books just to get a glimpse of what i could have, :) you know the movies were it takes them a long time (end of the movie) to find out that their love was right under their nose, well i guess they make movies fake for a reason, because there is no such thing as true love or happiness, its only all in our heads, well i think this post is done, i will chat later, going to eat chocolate and eat ice cream and watch corny love stories, bye:)

is happiness only something we can pursue... is love real?

Well havent been on here for a while but im writing about my life, i don't even expect any comments because of what ive put everyone through, i dont want my life to be this bad, i do love someone, but there has always been something in the way of it, happiness has not been in my vocabulary for over a year now, i cant take it anymore, i want my family back, i want my family to get me, well done venting, im done, i guess sometimes its good just to give up)_: which lately, has been an everday thing for me.

Almost Time For Me To Give Up???

Found out my boyfriend was cheating ):
Probly not going to get the classes i wanted ughh
stick me in stupid classes thats were i belong, i hate chs!

Justin Bieber's House

hahaha i really wish i was at justin's house so we can sing, and i can forget about everything here in meadville!!!!!!!!!! hahhaha

"we can go no where but UP" -JB!

Wrestling Cheerleading, NATHAN WIGTON!!!

i love cheering just actually did my dance last night at the talent show lol okay so theres this boy and his name is nathan wigton and i really like him how do i start talking to a guyy?? HELPPPP

alot of stuff going on.. blogging and journaling

i just recently started journaling and its really helped me ive been less stressed and now i dont flip as much... well this post isnt long...

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smile(:

i dont believe this...

having an awesome weekend i guess always busy... really am anxious for Madison Renee Jackman<3 truthfully, i think that im going to spoil her my mom said that she was going to be the most spoild granddaughter, daughter, and sister (: i really cannot wait(:

oh my gosh....

a lot of everything):... over it though im doing better... loosing weight for next year for school... maybe it will be better for me then...

MADISON RENEE JACKMAN<3 I CANT WAIT I LOVE YOUR LITTLE KICKS(:

Knitting, house cleaning, the new baby... om gosh its alot but i can handle it(:

i love it cause i have a new baby sister coming on the way(: madison renee jackman(: i loe her already(: cant wait(:

New Post?... I Think So.

I guess its time for a new post and waiting for my mothers results... While waiting here i start to think of everything that i have put a lot of people through but i know that now, that things are different. Just made Jessica Vickers a CD and ha it was fun, but on a daily basis i think a lot about life and how it is supposed to be for everyone and i just noticed that everyone has there own crisis and obviously i have had my fair share of them, but the person that, i know, has been through everything, is my one true best friend, mother, and idol, my mom. I have put her through a lot especially when she did not need it and neither did anyone else. She is a pregnant 42/25(haha) year old, and it is a blessing to know that my mom still has the right things to bring this baby into the world, of course im going to say babies are annoying but when i say that, i dont meen it at all they are an adorable creature that lives on this earth. Everyday there is a new baby being born, and on Oct., 22 2010 will be my new baby sis/bro!!! im very excited for everything and i have had a glamorus life so far and im not going to let a little drama here and there get in my way... Which reminds me, im getting farther on my knitting my Aunt came over 3 weeks ago and she taught me how to knit, and today before she left i learnd what im supposed to do, adn now its getting easier to me... i have to get 10 inches on my knitting or my Aunt is going to kill me, not litterally, but on the other hand school is out and my summer is awesome, parents met the boyfriend and now im okay with everything i just hate disrespecting my mom and Rick knowing now how much they do for me, wow do i feel foolish for never telling them i love them all the time or just asking my mom if she needs anything, actually just sitting here thinking of all of the stress i put my mom under i feel really ashamed about all of it but now thinking that its in the past so really i dont have to worry about it cause right here right now all im going to worry about is my present and future. Went fishing and me and katie caught some my mom caught 3 i caught 7 and kt caught 4 and it was fun i think my mom uploaded new pictures of it, i think i might take up painting my mom and gram are going to have to teach me how to do that one. I think my thoughts are out but i dont think i have words to describe how excided i am for this baby (: well my post is over, comment if you like new pictures of fishing and other things later...

PAST=OVER
PRESENT=LIVE IT
FUTURE=PLAN IT(:



LIVE YOU LIFE TO THE FULLEST
LAUGH IT UP EVEN WHEN ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY
LOVE SOMEONE LIKE FAM-ILY-

ello govna

ahhahahaha lol wow talking to katie natalie ha and almost wanting to call andy
yay hahaha one month(: and 6 days

Loving the new way im trying to live my life.... and new SISTER is coming... yayay hahah

Thinking about definetly when i get older im having a child, they are so adorable... Today was overall and okay day, getting some leeway from my madree and im most certainly excited about the new baby(:

-I have done good with my responsibilities

-Almost done with a book im reading...

-Thinking about looking for a babysitting job near meadville (:

OVERALL I HAVE HAD AN AMAZING LIFE... AND THANKS MOM AND RICK AND DAD FOR MAKING ME THINK ABOUT MY ACTIONS BEFORE I DO THEM... CANT WAIT TO DROP ALL THIS WEIGHT... (: IM VERY EXCITED



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PSSA's are rlly funnn!! ha

so i tested all through 1-4 periods and it rllly stunk ha lol but i think that i did a good job on them and if i didnt i have to take 2 math classes and 2 reading classed and possibly loose one of my electives and im not loosing speech/drama im very excited for that class!! (:

smiles(:

good day at school today...
.... hoping to be done with my book by the end of this month.... haha lol sara's song is the best im a sucker for love stories and i wish that it would really happen... haha but im not worried about boys right now ha

Maybe another time back around would work... not

so i liked this boy austin right... and all the sudden he thinks it's funny to sit there and talk about me when im sitting right there in front of him wow so mature of his rite i rlly thot he would be one of the differant guys... guess not hes like all of the others ive liked in the past w/e idc n e more ppl are a waste of my time n emore i have like no true frends n e more... they all talk behind my back and it bugs me... THE THING THAT BUGS ME MOST ABOUT IT IS THAT IM SITTING RIGHT THERE.. AND GETTING CALLED FAT IN SCHOOL... thats all i need thanks for the boost guys.. NOT ILL FIND MY OWN WAY OUT WITHOUT ALL OF U AND SHOW U WHAT AN AWESOME AND AMAZING PERSON I CAN BE.. U DONT LIKE ME.. I DONT CAREEE NE MORE SO STOP BEING THE WAY U ARE TOWARD ME AND GROW UPPP!!!!!!

Drama and more drama

wow people think i cause it and i dont...--
and its everywhere you and it drives--
im not so sure anymore what--

DRAMA

losing and winning.....

i quit cheerleading---a loose---HAD AN AWESOME B-DAY---a win!!! A lot of people hate for my decisions lately but i just brush it off of my shoulder and say "i guess this is just life" "and ill have to get over it. But i love my BEST FRIEND RAELEE SMITH-- she has helped me through everything-- and also i need to stop worrying about GUYS they have given me crap about everything.... ON THE PLUS SIDE-- MY BFF ANHTONY POWERS... im setting him up with christen Snyder... my bestie... ya!! i cant wait to see if they are dating tomorrow aha lol omg!! today also was an awesome day. i just need to live my life to the fullest everyday!!! dont worry about boyfriend's and worry about getting to know them first!!! i love anthony and all but im seriously tired of sitting there fantasizing about what could happen and actually just sit back and relize what an awesome freind he rly is hes my best guy freind I LOVE YOU ANTHONY!!! HAHA yay!! i cant wait to see him and christen together!!!! love you~~~

~morgan rae~
P.S. i loveee my family and my pets haha

CHEERLEADING

my squad and i are working on this dance it is sooo imposible to accomplish ha but i know i can do it!!!

CHS CHEERLEADER

Im happy because i made chs jhbball cheering (: yaaa

today... was eventful

Well bored out of mind. I lost my myspace password.

ohh right hunters safety course

i passed haha

sick....

I had swine flu well so my mother says haha and i had a fever of 103.4 and now i think that its back to its normal self.. :) thanks :) <3 and i enjoyed the haunted house with anthony and zane and cody it was awesome haha lol a night i will always remember. :)

BOYFRIEND AND PUPPY HAHA

broke up with my boyfriend today i was crying th rest of the day but its all good now im okay... haha i guess..... PUPPIES and their chewing haha hope wont stop chewing on things haha its been a while since i had a puppy that chewed on everything haha..

family

i just got a new puppy hahe lol im still trying to get used to her bitin muh fingers but its cute ~morgan rae~