Recovering Alcoholics?

There really is nothing on my mind at the moment, not to sure when people will stop drinking and driving? like is someone really that stupid honestly, yeah i drink, so what? but im not the one sitting back talking shit on the people that do go out and party but yet i do the same thing? that's called a hypocritical statement. you wanna be the damn hero? SAVE YOUR DAMN SELF FIRST!

why cant i find happiness....

sometimes i dream about a place where there isnt any drama, or fighting or relationships, i just dream about me being happy, but then i wake up from that dream, it sucks to know that the only happiness i can have is in a dream, although, i have had happiness once in my life, when my parents were together, i mean life was amazing, i remember going camping about having dad mom and all the kids together, i miss is, honestly i think that they both miss it as well. I'm stuck watching romance movies or reading them in the books just to get a glimpse of what i could have, :) you know the movies were it takes them a long time (end of the movie) to find out that their love was right under their nose, well i guess they make movies fake for a reason, because there is no such thing as true love or happiness, its only all in our heads, well i think this post is done, i will chat later, going to eat chocolate and eat ice cream and watch corny love stories, bye:)

is happiness only something we can pursue... is love real?

Well havent been on here for a while but im writing about my life, i don't even expect any comments because of what ive put everyone through, i dont want my life to be this bad, i do love someone, but there has always been something in the way of it, happiness has not been in my vocabulary for over a year now, i cant take it anymore, i want my family back, i want my family to get me, well done venting, im done, i guess sometimes its good just to give up)_: which lately, has been an everday thing for me.